Mi Vida Loca!

It has been sooooooo long since I blogged I dont even know where to begin, nor do I necessarily have any one thing I want to talk about. I just missed blogging and Im trying to come back to it as often as I can. Life has been up and down but I've been learning so many lessons throughout the past year. I cant believe in 2 months I'll be turning the big 35 Its crazy I dont look nor feel it and I think you're only as old as you feel. I definitely have alot of living left to do and so many things on my bucket list that I want to continue to check off. I did a flash mob at my job last week..... Awesome! We all did the Happy dance to Pharell with the doctors and nurses. In just 6 months I've gone from a job at the mortgage company to working in a Hospital which im LOVING at the moment. It keeps me busy and I feel like its one step closer to my goals. I get to rub noses with the Doctors and nurses and get a first hand glimpse of what its like to be an RN. I give them much credit. They work HARD. As for my weight gain journey I just stopped being focused on it and would you know I've been picking up a little weight. :) About 7 lbs so far. I'll take it! lol I have alot of different things I want to blog about which I'll address sometime during the next week. My tv shows Ive been watching, some celeb gossip, my fashion ideas and some of the random fun things I have planned for this summer. I will be speaking about this whole Jay Z and Solange elevator battle, and some of my fav reality shows and all types of things coming up. Also have you ever crowd surfed at a Waka Flaka concert??? I feel like its necessary. And I'll probably be doing that before the year is out. The crowd is super rowdy and I might break a limb but it looks like a rack of fun. Dont judge me Im impulsive and random. Love it or hate it but thats me :)

When do you point the finger at yourself?

Its been so long since I blogged but for the past few weeks I've been doing a lot of reflecting....thinking about what role I play in some of the negative situations that occur in my life. 2013 went by like a blur and for me personally it contained a lot of drama and arguing and stress.


Today it occurred to me that I cant continue to always point the finger at others because I play a key role in some of it by simply responding. I always heard sometimes silence is the best response but I've had quite a time putting that to use. I have never been able to turn the other cheek or walk away from confrontation when I feel that Im being disrespected... 
I see red and I lose all control of my temper and that is not healthy especially for mfs that aren't worth it.






However I'm 34 now and I'll be damn if Im going to be arguing with people, especially people that don't mean anything special to me over pointless shit. Far too often I let people take me out of my square and I react to shit that I should just walk away from and ignore. Got into a little verbal spar with someone today and as I was responding to the texts I felt those feelings coming back, my face getting hot, the anger, etc..... all the things that aren't healthy for me at the end of the day.
So I said how about learning to just STOP responding. When we say we are going to remove the negative people and things from our life we need to do exactly that.




LET
THE
FUCK
GO




When people feel the need to get nasty and disrespectful block those bitches and keep it moving. That's what Im going to work on for this year. I know it wont happen overnight but Im taking steps towards it starting with just simply ignoring people and their SHIT.






Signed,




Love.....