Whats next?

I've been doing some soul searching lately. I feel like Im at the point in my life where I should already have accomplished certain goals. Its a huge part of me thats been wanting to tap into my creative side. Nursing school resumes in may and Im excited and ready to finish. I feel like its my calling.

But the desire to do more is still there. I feel like a bird that hasnt completely spread its wings. Sounds corny and cliche but its true. There is so much LIVING to be done and I dont feel like Im LIVING my life.

The reserved me would complete my degree and be a RN in VA or NC, live a simple life with me and my daughter. Throw a husband in the mix if thats whats destined for me.
But the ME that wants to be creative and live would love to take my daughter and go off and be a nurse in Paris or some foreign country. While tapping into my creative side...maybe getting into the arts or dance or becoming a chef by night. I want my child to live an enriched life not based on how much money she has but by the things she gets to experience.

I love music so much, I wonder if I could play a part in producing it or songwriting. I love fashion, maybe I could be a stylist for the stars, I love writing, maybe I could write scripts for comedy movies or sitcoms. I just know I want to make people smile and feel happy when in my presence.

I watched an old movie last night with Robert Deniro and Robin Williams called "awakenings"
I was sooooo into that movie from start to finish. It was cast in 1990 but it left a lasting impression on me. I could tap into my creative side and research cures for these post-encephalitic patients. The movie was very toughing and had I been the dr something like that would have brought me to tears.

My lifes a little all over the place right now and Im trying my BEST even when others dont think so, to get things in order and live the life I know I deserve


Until than

Love