Its been SOOOOOOO long since I blogged but trust me the thoughts and feelings have been here needing an outlet. I was trying to sleep tonight and I thought about all the hoopla surrounding doomsday. Man does not know the day or the hour when the world will end so I find it entertaining to see people going to such extremes thinking tomorrow will be the last day. However.... in my trail of random thoughts it made me think about the victims of the Conneticut elementary school shooting.
As I lay holding my child in my arms I thought about how numb we have become. Every few weeks something huge happens, we see loss of life in large numbers, we have countries that have no unity, mass shootings, kidnappings, murders etc. We see these things so often and at that moment it grabs our heart, and the next thing you know life moves on for us.....
We're back on the 9-5 or the routine and how soon we forget all the tragedy that people have endured. It made me question bringing another child into a world like this... In a way its almost an injustice to bring a child into a world full of so much danger, and animosity, and hate. It shoudnt be normal to see some of the tragedies that I witness on TV now but this is the world that we live in and normal is exactly what it has become.
I like to think of myself as a humanitarian, as someone who was put here on this earth to make a difference and to be that person that hasnt become numb to it all. Alot of times when people have moved past the last "big thing" I think back to it and I wonder about the families and the loss of life. Its just who I am. But it all leads me to do soul searching figuring out what I can do to help.
This return blog is for sure not warm and fuzzy but just my thoughts as so called doomsday rolls in.
My opinion we been living in doomsday for the past 20 years. This so called life is full of paranoia because you never know whats next.
No pics with this blog tonight just had to get my thoughts out.
Until than,
LOVE
and for those that think tomorrows the last day I'll make sure to blog tomorrow to tell you suckers how wrong you were ;0)
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Dad is that you?.... :)
I talked to my dad on the phone today...
I blogged about him a month or so ago about how I need and want him in my life now that he's finally home. We had a good talk for about 20 minutes or so. We're gonna hang out on fathers day. Its time to let go of my fears and move forward with trying to form a bond.
He said he's a sports fanatic and likes the Pittsburg Steelers and the New York Knicks. Maybe I can pick him up a sports hat and a nice fathers day card. We're gonna do lunch, me, him and my daughter.
Looking forward to getting to know him. It'll be the first fathers day I've ever been able to spend with my dad in my life.
WOW
:)
I blogged about him a month or so ago about how I need and want him in my life now that he's finally home. We had a good talk for about 20 minutes or so. We're gonna hang out on fathers day. Its time to let go of my fears and move forward with trying to form a bond.
He said he's a sports fanatic and likes the Pittsburg Steelers and the New York Knicks. Maybe I can pick him up a sports hat and a nice fathers day card. We're gonna do lunch, me, him and my daughter.
Looking forward to getting to know him. It'll be the first fathers day I've ever been able to spend with my dad in my life.
WOW
:)
Take a moment....
Monday was kind of a weird but thoughtful day for me.
What Im about to type will sound kind of random but it has sort of a moral at the end.
It started out a normal day....but later that evening when I got home I was cleaning up and Amari was right beside me and she all of a sudden started screaming and crying and couldnt really breathe. So in my haste trying to figure out what was wrong I noticed she kept holding her nose. She had a BEAD stuck inside her nose, and I dont mean a small bead that goes on the end of your hair I mean a big huge crystal bead that went to one my bracelets that broke. So Im trying not to panic and long story short it took me about 10 minutes, but I got the bead out of her nose. I used a crochet neeedle-the hook part and got it out that way. Now it scared the hell out of me because so many what ifs could have happened but anyway.... (Thats my princess :(
About an hour later I went to go check on my mom. Went In the house, went in her room and her lights were off- called her name, she didnt say anything. I cut the lights on and she was laid on the side of the bed, sweating, shaking, just kind of out of it. So I ran over to her asked her what was wrong, she said she had been throwing up and her feet and hands were shaking, she was hot, dizzy etc. I got her some cold water and made her drink it, put a cool cloth on her forehead, and massaged her feet and hands to get the circulation going. Im in nursing school so I figured she had gone into a diabetic shock. I sat with her til she was feeling better. those 2 incidents really had me feeling like wtf.
About an hour after that one of my guy besties calls and and he told me his father passed away that day. Seems like alot of people close to me have lost family members recently. So when he told me that, and I thought of the 2 scares I had with my daughter and my mom, and some of the things that have happened over the past few months to others.... it made me think.
Its so important to tell the people you care for that you love them.
So I sent texts to my close friends and a few select people I called, just to simply say I love you. I love you holds alot of weight but it has a different feeling to hear someone say it.
Its nice to hear someones voice and everyone texts now a days but how soon we forget what life was like before texting. I think families were closer, relationships were a little different in a good way. I still have a few people that I talk to on the phone often but literally I've been out to dinner with my girls and everyone at some point has their face stuck in their cell phone. Thats a whole nother story but I'll save that for another blog.
The present is a gift and you have to live each day being thankful for waking up. Thats a blessing in itself but we take it for granted. Everyones so busy with their lives, everyones texting, tweeting, working, partying but the little things we sometimes forget. I vow to never forget or never stop doing the little things.. They can be some of lifes best moments.
So take a little time out of your day and let the special people in your life know you love them. It only takes a minute but it means alot.
Until than......
What Im about to type will sound kind of random but it has sort of a moral at the end.
It started out a normal day....but later that evening when I got home I was cleaning up and Amari was right beside me and she all of a sudden started screaming and crying and couldnt really breathe. So in my haste trying to figure out what was wrong I noticed she kept holding her nose. She had a BEAD stuck inside her nose, and I dont mean a small bead that goes on the end of your hair I mean a big huge crystal bead that went to one my bracelets that broke. So Im trying not to panic and long story short it took me about 10 minutes, but I got the bead out of her nose. I used a crochet neeedle-the hook part and got it out that way. Now it scared the hell out of me because so many what ifs could have happened but anyway.... (Thats my princess :(
About an hour later I went to go check on my mom. Went In the house, went in her room and her lights were off- called her name, she didnt say anything. I cut the lights on and she was laid on the side of the bed, sweating, shaking, just kind of out of it. So I ran over to her asked her what was wrong, she said she had been throwing up and her feet and hands were shaking, she was hot, dizzy etc. I got her some cold water and made her drink it, put a cool cloth on her forehead, and massaged her feet and hands to get the circulation going. Im in nursing school so I figured she had gone into a diabetic shock. I sat with her til she was feeling better. those 2 incidents really had me feeling like wtf.
About an hour after that one of my guy besties calls and and he told me his father passed away that day. Seems like alot of people close to me have lost family members recently. So when he told me that, and I thought of the 2 scares I had with my daughter and my mom, and some of the things that have happened over the past few months to others.... it made me think.
Its so important to tell the people you care for that you love them.
So I sent texts to my close friends and a few select people I called, just to simply say I love you. I love you holds alot of weight but it has a different feeling to hear someone say it.
The present is a gift and you have to live each day being thankful for waking up. Thats a blessing in itself but we take it for granted. Everyones so busy with their lives, everyones texting, tweeting, working, partying but the little things we sometimes forget. I vow to never forget or never stop doing the little things.. They can be some of lifes best moments.
So take a little time out of your day and let the special people in your life know you love them. It only takes a minute but it means alot.
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Why nice guys finish last....
I need to let you know why yall finish last and what women (MOST of us) want.
When a woman says she doesnt like a guy thats too nice... the nice guys take that commentary to the extreme. Here's what we want in a nutshell.
There are varying levels of the nice guy but there's a level thats waaaayyyy too much for us and here it is....
THE PUSHOVER- THIS is the worst type of nice guy you can be. He's super nice. He's attractive and well mannered. He wants to see you and be with you everyday. He has no backbone. You ask him what he wants to see at the movies..he says whatever you want to see, you say hey what do you want to do this weekend..he says whatever YOU want to do. He may even tell you "You wear the pants" (true story)
You can do no wrong in his eyes. You get smart with him, he says NOTHING or overly apologizes even when you're in the wrong. He wants to be up under you 24 hours a day 7 days a week with no space. You ask him how your hair looks he'll tell you its AMAZING even if you look like a disaster with 3 different color weaves. He will NEVER tell you NO to anything!!!!! Women dont like yes men. I dont want to know I can ask you to go walk 15 blocks in the snow and get me a waffle and you'll do it. I prefer you say you outta your damn mind. You wont be getting a waffle tonight.
He washes your car twice a week even when its calling for rain. He acts like he really ENOYS shopping with you. He calls you way too much. You cook something that you KNOW isnt good and he'll tell you its the best most tender steak he ever had. You say youre going to the grocery store, he wants to meet you up there and push the cart down aisle 3 with you. You tell him he looks nice, he has no confidence he says oh I dont feel like I look nice or no one as beautiful as you ever told me that. He'll tell you I was intimitaded by you when we first met. Just something dumb. We dont wanna hear that crap. He's scared to kiss you or make the first move. He calls you on every lunch break and sends you text messages at 6:48 am like GOOD MORNING LUV!!!! The day is BEAUTIFUL because you're in it!!! He writes poems and shit. Its just too much.
The type of nice guy women want is a nice guy with a BACKBONE. Women like men with confidence and aggression. And very few men know how to find this balance.
THIS nice guy is stable, he compliments you not too much but enough so that when he says something sweet you actually fkn believe it and it makes you feel warm and fuzzy inside. Your dates are romantic but also laid back. He's not gazing in your eyes speaking french but you're laughing and joking and its comfortable. He has a BACKBONE> cant explain how important this is. He will hear you out but if you're in the wrong...this mf will put you in check and let you know. You CANT talk to him anyway and he's honest with you. If you cook some shit that tastes like garbage guess what he's going to tell you. In the bedroom he's not a weak pansy ass. He'll pull your hair and talk dirty in your ear. He might throw you on the bed. (we like shit like this) He wont disrespect you, hit you or call you out of your name but he'll tell you the truth. If you need help he'll help you out. You give him a compliment he may say something like I know Im fine woman. He'll fix shit around the house, he takes the trash out, he'll let you know hey chick you need to get your oil changed. He might wash your car sometimes and he's basically just a stand up guy that knows how to treat a woman. He can meet your parents with ease and not be nervous. And guess what he's not a YES MAN! he will actually tell you NO sometimes!!! You see the drastic difference in the pushover and the confident nice guy? Its HUGE but you still have a nice man.
As long as you test the confident nice guy with a few arguments to make sure he wont call you out of your name and bitch slap you without taking out the trash you probably have a winner. He's a bad mf.
Confidence and a little aggression on a nice man = sexy.
Learn from this and you'll know how to be a nice man without finishing last and wondering why that bad chick stopped answering your calls. Im no expert but I know what women want. So go get that chick you been acting so bitch around. Just man up a little..
Until than....
Thursday, May 31, 2012
DANCE BABY!!!! Random Volume 3
The more I blog the more therapeutic it becomes for me.
I've been doing alot of thinking lately about what people are really passionate about. What drives you? What makes your soul wake up?
Everyone that knows me knows I want this nursing degree so bad I can taste it, and Im super close to that.....BUT
If I wasnt pursuing a career in nursing you know what I would be??
a mothafuckin dancer. Like an ABDC, so you think you can dance bad ass type of chick pop lockin, breaking, doing mj moves and flipping over rows of 7-8 people, snaking and than crump dancing to the end of the stage like WHAT. That shit EXCITES me. I already know the whole scenario for Rihanna where have you been and I give you a real show!
Ok I got that off my chest. I feel better,
But on another note who's to say I cant be that? Whats stopping me? Nothing but me really. If I wanted to go out and pursue that I could do it. But its that fear of the unknown. what would happen could I make it? I would love to drop all my books and just dance, dance til it hurts, dance til I can barely catch a breath. But that reward and satisfaction at the end of captivating your audience and also challenging yourself to do moves you maybe thought you couldnt pull off. But you do it, you keep getting up and perfecting your moves until one day you have it down pat and you're damn near perfect.
So where is the market for a tall slim 32 year old in shape woman that wants to get the fk DOWN and do backflips and shit. LOLLLLLL. No one will take me seriously so I guess I just got to join a dance program and we get better and better, than you gonna look and see me doing choreographed moves with Rihanna and Beyonce.. Throw me up in the air and I promise I'll land on my feet.Im trying to get down with rhythm nation and step and do all types of shit.
A girl can dream cant she? LOL
Until than
Love.....
I've been doing alot of thinking lately about what people are really passionate about. What drives you? What makes your soul wake up?
Everyone that knows me knows I want this nursing degree so bad I can taste it, and Im super close to that.....BUT
If I wasnt pursuing a career in nursing you know what I would be??
Ok I got that off my chest. I feel better,
But on another note who's to say I cant be that? Whats stopping me? Nothing but me really. If I wanted to go out and pursue that I could do it. But its that fear of the unknown. what would happen could I make it? I would love to drop all my books and just dance, dance til it hurts, dance til I can barely catch a breath. But that reward and satisfaction at the end of captivating your audience and also challenging yourself to do moves you maybe thought you couldnt pull off. But you do it, you keep getting up and perfecting your moves until one day you have it down pat and you're damn near perfect.
So where is the market for a tall slim 32 year old in shape woman that wants to get the fk DOWN and do backflips and shit. LOLLLLLL. No one will take me seriously so I guess I just got to join a dance program and we get better and better, than you gonna look and see me doing choreographed moves with Rihanna and Beyonce.. Throw me up in the air and I promise I'll land on my feet.Im trying to get down with rhythm nation and step and do all types of shit.
A girl can dream cant she? LOL
Until than
Love.....
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Good Deeds.....
Its memorial day weekend and I find myself not doing the usual this holiday. No cookouts, no parties, not hanging out with my friends. Just relaxing. My daughter is gone for the weekend and wont be back til Monday. :(
Anyhow today I made myself some stir fry and popped in Good Deeds by Tyler Perry.
.When Kane got shot in Menace II Society, When E.T left Gerdie and got on that ship to go home, Yeah I know we ALL cried...But I have NEVER in all my life cried this much over or through any movie.
I think I identified so much with the role Thandie Newton played and I saw so many similarities in my life that it just hit a little too close. It inspired me dont get me wrong but it was just crazy....
I mean here we have a woman in her 30's with a 6 year old daughter that life just threw a ton of curveballs at. She lost her place, had to start from the bottom all over again. .That =.....ME
I've had the loss of my home. I've been that woman in the broken down car just frustrated with life and a crying daughter in the back seat. I've had those days where everything seems to be going wrong. Daughter is dropped off late to school because of car problemsand it just seems like you cant WIN. And that frustration can come across as attitude to others because you feel like no one understands what you're feeling. The movie was so eerily similar that I had the O_O look a few times like say what???
But you have to be strong through all of that and realize those days wont be around forever. When you're going through it though, its SO hard to see the brighter picture.
Im at the rebuild point NOW with school and acquiring some of the things I lost... but I experienced so much of what she did with the exception of being homeless or having to sleep in my car. *Prayers up that I never get there and thank God for a big family.
Anyhow it was an awesome movie. A tear jerker but great none the less, touching for me. Maybe one of the most touching movies I've personally watched. So at the end she found her dream man and moved to Africa. Im all for the dream man but I prefer to stay in the states. :)
I've got a headache now so Im gonna lay it down and pop in Safehouse with Denzel and try to get some rest.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Random thoughts - Volume 2
Im a whirl wind of thoughts as always. Today a bit more than usual.
When I have too many random thoughts I can never settle on what I want to blog about so I just jumble it into one.
I had a ton of music therapy today. You ever listen to music and it makes you feel so good you feel a tingle up your spine? Yeah...its been like that. I dont go a day without listening to music but some days I feel it more than others. Today I listened to Rihanna- Where have you been, Adele- Rumour has it, Sade- Kiss of Life, Drake- The Resistance, Rare Essence- Pieces of Me, Tribe Called Quest- Electric Relaxation, Flo-Rida and Sia- Wild ones, Main Source- Lookin at the front door... just a little of everything. And it felt amazing. I put my itunes on shuffle and close my eyes, sing, rap, or depending on the song I get up and dance. What can I say. Im a ball of energy.
My daughter and I are super close. But recently over the past few months our bond has been closer. Not sure if its been because Im coming out of whats been a stressful period in my life or maybe just her getting older and us being able to do more together but all I know is she brightens my day. I see the twinkle in her eyes and I sit back and watch her. Im just in awe that I created such a wonderful amazing gift. And its an unexplainable love.
Happy tears-
I'm an overly emotional person but not necesarily in a bad way. I have alot of happy tears. When something makes me extremely happy I cry which can be kind of weird. When the underdog wins; I cry. When deserving people have lifechanging events or win things; I cry. Doing for the homeless; yeah I get a bit misty eyed after I give. Weddings, Childbirth, Church sermons, Movie endings, Awesome performances from my favorite artists- YUP
I cry. Im just over emotional. Sorry
In my last random blog I was thinking about how long I've been trying to gain weight. For atleast 10 years I've been trying to change ME. And I remember thinking how we're our own worst critics. So it led me to think how about just being happy with who you are and not always wanting to constantly change. I dont think we or atleast ME...I dont think I realize how much I constantly beat myself up about things that arent even important.
Im 5'10. Im 137 and Im fine just the way I am....
When I have too many random thoughts I can never settle on what I want to blog about so I just jumble it into one.
I had a ton of music therapy today. You ever listen to music and it makes you feel so good you feel a tingle up your spine? Yeah...its been like that. I dont go a day without listening to music but some days I feel it more than others. Today I listened to Rihanna- Where have you been, Adele- Rumour has it, Sade- Kiss of Life, Drake- The Resistance, Rare Essence- Pieces of Me, Tribe Called Quest- Electric Relaxation, Flo-Rida and Sia- Wild ones, Main Source- Lookin at the front door... just a little of everything. And it felt amazing. I put my itunes on shuffle and close my eyes, sing, rap, or depending on the song I get up and dance. What can I say. Im a ball of energy.
My daughter and I are super close. But recently over the past few months our bond has been closer. Not sure if its been because Im coming out of whats been a stressful period in my life or maybe just her getting older and us being able to do more together but all I know is she brightens my day. I see the twinkle in her eyes and I sit back and watch her. Im just in awe that I created such a wonderful amazing gift. And its an unexplainable love.
Happy tears-
I'm an overly emotional person but not necesarily in a bad way. I have alot of happy tears. When something makes me extremely happy I cry which can be kind of weird. When the underdog wins; I cry. When deserving people have lifechanging events or win things; I cry. Doing for the homeless; yeah I get a bit misty eyed after I give. Weddings, Childbirth, Church sermons, Movie endings, Awesome performances from my favorite artists- YUP
I cry. Im just over emotional. Sorry
In my last random blog I was thinking about how long I've been trying to gain weight. For atleast 10 years I've been trying to change ME. And I remember thinking how we're our own worst critics. So it led me to think how about just being happy with who you are and not always wanting to constantly change. I dont think we or atleast ME...I dont think I realize how much I constantly beat myself up about things that arent even important.
Im 5'10. Im 137 and Im fine just the way I am....
Thursday, May 17, 2012
How to fuck up some cake pops. By... ME
Alright, so I got this bright idea in my head that I wanted to try to make these cute little cake pops you see all over the place now. They all the rave and just so ADORABLE. I mean its cake on a lollipop stick. Doesnt get much cutesier.
This is a stock photo of how cake pops are SUPPOSED to look...
SO I went out and got all the ingredients. My cake mix, icing, cake pan, oil, eggs,styrofoam board to stick the cake pops in, candy sprinkles, chocolate melts and pearls to sprinkle on my BEAUTIFUL magazine worthy cake pops right?
Yeah we'll start with what went right and than segway real quick into the end result.
I took step by step pictures for you bishes and when I saw the end result. I decided to scrap all that.
Here's all the stuff I did in no particular order.
What went right was making and baking the cake, and melting the chocolate and making them into balls and putting them on the cookie sheet. LICKING the bowl also went excellent. Everything else was a downhill slide.
BELOW is how they turned out.
LOOK at my fuckin cake pops son. Just LOOK o__O
They just started going down about 2 minutes after I sat them upright in the styrofoam. My daughter said LOOK mama your pake pops are crashing!!!! I said whuh??
She said CRASHING and sure enough they were dropping like a plane that lost its engine. I tried picking one up and sliding it back up to the top and no sooner than I did that another one slid down so I tried to slide that one up and than they both just crumbled apart and so did 3 more...
It was just BAD man. Who are these little cutesy chicks making these bite size cupcake pops?? Martha stewart?
Its ok though I'll try again and I'll succeed. Anyone who knows me knows I dont give up easy.
Until than
SO I went out and got all the ingredients. My cake mix, icing, cake pan, oil, eggs,styrofoam board to stick the cake pops in, candy sprinkles, chocolate melts and pearls to sprinkle on my BEAUTIFUL magazine worthy cake pops right?
Yeah we'll start with what went right and than segway real quick into the end result.
I took step by step pictures for you bishes and when I saw the end result. I decided to scrap all that.
Here's all the stuff I did in no particular order.
What went right was making and baking the cake, and melting the chocolate and making them into balls and putting them on the cookie sheet. LICKING the bowl also went excellent. Everything else was a downhill slide.
BELOW is how they turned out.
They just started going down about 2 minutes after I sat them upright in the styrofoam. My daughter said LOOK mama your pake pops are crashing!!!! I said whuh??
She said CRASHING and sure enough they were dropping like a plane that lost its engine. I tried picking one up and sliding it back up to the top and no sooner than I did that another one slid down so I tried to slide that one up and than they both just crumbled apart and so did 3 more...
It was just BAD man. Who are these little cutesy chicks making these bite size cupcake pops?? Martha stewart?
Until than
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Natural Hair- Two Strand Twist and Bantu Knot *UPDATED*
Ok so Im keeping it short and simple today. Im almost 2 years natural but I always wear my hair blown out and flat ironed.
Today I co-washed it with olive oil leave in conditioner. Here's a pic of it after its been washed. This is my true natural texture. =/
I than added Eco styler gel to my whole head.
I finger sectioned it and two strand twisted those sections.
Here's a length check. You can see how much shrinkage I have once the water hits. Its crazy
Afterwards I than did a bantu knot on each twist.
Now I have my hair tied up with a silk scarf so it can dry and I can take it out in the morning and hopefully it will be all crinkly and curly and awesome looking. Idk though. For right now my hair looks like sheep ass.
We'll see how it comes out in the morning when I undo the twists.
This is the look Im going for. HOW MUCH YOU WANNA BET I LOOK LIKE WHO DID IT AND WHY OR BUCKWHEAT IN THE AM!!!!! TAKING ALL WAGERS. LOL
When I take it aloose in the am Im gonna post a pic right than and there. nothing to hide round these parts. so.......
GOODNIGHT
UNTIL THAN
PEACE, LOVE, AND HAIR GREASE
Now I have my hair tied up with a silk scarf so it can dry and I can take it out in the morning and hopefully it will be all crinkly and curly and awesome looking. Idk though. For right now my hair looks like sheep ass.
We'll see how it comes out in the morning when I undo the twists.
When I take it aloose in the am Im gonna post a pic right than and there. nothing to hide round these parts. so.......
GOODNIGHT
UNTIL THAN
PEACE, LOVE, AND HAIR GREASE
Ok so I woke up this am and took out the bantu knots and twists... I dont know man. But here's a few pics. Looks more like spiral curls than a super crinkly twist out. But I "THINK" I kinda like it. :)
Monday, May 14, 2012
Randomness - Volume 1
I have a ton of topics I want to blog about but I cant settle on one in particular tonight.
But I always have randomness shooting through this head of mine.
Basketball wives- Tami vs Kesha
Ok....Tami was just 100% wrong. She was in super bitch mode for absolutely no reason. She bullied Kesha. I wish a grown ass woman would take my bag and than tell me I have to come apologize and ask for it back. Not only did Tami take her bag but she went through her purse and cell phone. I think Tami definitely lost alot of fans tonight. At this point her drama is way too pressed like she just wants to remain relevant and secure her slot for next season. And than Shaunie, Evelyn, and Suzie sit back and dont even tell her she's in the wrong for screaming on Kesha like that AND holding her bag hostage? I mean damn are they scared too? I guess some people really are meek and mild mannered like Kesha but there is NO way I could let someone pull that bullshit Tami pulled. It would have went completely different had I been in that situation with anyone.Seriously I wish a bitch would.
Weight gain- I had a brief discussion with someone who is in the same boat as me! LOL
Someone thats trying to gain weight. That was comforting in itself to find somoene that knows my little personal struggle. Because trust me NO ONE wants to hear the slim chick say she is trying to gain. Your friends will give you the side eye and say whatever bish everyone wants to be your size.
NEWS FLASH= there are some slim people that dont love it!! Anyway she gave me some good ideas for shakes made with milk, heavy whipping cream and chocolate syrup. Im gonna try it tomorrow and do it for a month to see what happens and I'll track my weight progress. Right now Im 5'10, 135 lbs and my goal is 150 lbs.
I think it comes down to you being your own worst critic. We're always (well most of us) trying to change something about ourselves, when maybe we should just be fine with the way we are.
Hmmmmm.... I could go deeper with that. That may be a whole blog in itself.
LaLa----- I really like Lala and her show, but Im wondering why her eyeballs never move. They just stay focused on you. No left or right movement. Next time you watch the show YOU WILL SEE WHAT I MEAN.
Complete randomness....
*I worked out a formula for nursing dosage calculations on how to do dose ordered over dose on hand and calculating doses. Its not the way the teacher shows us or the way the book teaches but it works in my mind and the answer comes out correct. So thats a good thing. Anything school related and good grades makes me proud. I Hi-5 my own damn self
*Someone I thought was a real friend showed me their true colors today. But its all good.
*I can be longwinded but I just want to make sure people understand all angles when Im trying to tell a story or get my point across.
*Watching your child sleep is one of the most beautiful things ever....
*I got my toes done last Wednesday and I got this God awful ELECTRIC BLUE. Idk what I was thinking. Its a pretty color but not for toes. =/
*I could really go for some PF changs lettuce wraps right now. And a piece of pumpkin cheesecake from Cheesecake factory....and a glass of coca cola... and some hibachi scallops.
*Dont let me get rich. I would have my assistant running all over late night just to satisfy food cravings. Im not rich though so let me go warm up this plate of spaghetti and fried apples.
Until than
LOVE....
But I always have randomness shooting through this head of mine.
Basketball wives- Tami vs Kesha
Ok....Tami was just 100% wrong. She was in super bitch mode for absolutely no reason. She bullied Kesha. I wish a grown ass woman would take my bag and than tell me I have to come apologize and ask for it back. Not only did Tami take her bag but she went through her purse and cell phone. I think Tami definitely lost alot of fans tonight. At this point her drama is way too pressed like she just wants to remain relevant and secure her slot for next season. And than Shaunie, Evelyn, and Suzie sit back and dont even tell her she's in the wrong for screaming on Kesha like that AND holding her bag hostage? I mean damn are they scared too? I guess some people really are meek and mild mannered like Kesha but there is NO way I could let someone pull that bullshit Tami pulled. It would have went completely different had I been in that situation with anyone.Seriously I wish a bitch would.
Weight gain- I had a brief discussion with someone who is in the same boat as me! LOL
Someone thats trying to gain weight. That was comforting in itself to find somoene that knows my little personal struggle. Because trust me NO ONE wants to hear the slim chick say she is trying to gain. Your friends will give you the side eye and say whatever bish everyone wants to be your size.
NEWS FLASH= there are some slim people that dont love it!! Anyway she gave me some good ideas for shakes made with milk, heavy whipping cream and chocolate syrup. Im gonna try it tomorrow and do it for a month to see what happens and I'll track my weight progress. Right now Im 5'10, 135 lbs and my goal is 150 lbs.
I think it comes down to you being your own worst critic. We're always (well most of us) trying to change something about ourselves, when maybe we should just be fine with the way we are.
Hmmmmm.... I could go deeper with that. That may be a whole blog in itself.
LaLa----- I really like Lala and her show, but Im wondering why her eyeballs never move. They just stay focused on you. No left or right movement. Next time you watch the show YOU WILL SEE WHAT I MEAN.
Complete randomness....
*Someone I thought was a real friend showed me their true colors today. But its all good.
*I can be longwinded but I just want to make sure people understand all angles when Im trying to tell a story or get my point across.
*Watching your child sleep is one of the most beautiful things ever....
*I got my toes done last Wednesday and I got this God awful ELECTRIC BLUE. Idk what I was thinking. Its a pretty color but not for toes. =/
*I could really go for some PF changs lettuce wraps right now. And a piece of pumpkin cheesecake from Cheesecake factory....and a glass of coca cola... and some hibachi scallops.
*Dont let me get rich. I would have my assistant running all over late night just to satisfy food cravings. Im not rich though so let me go warm up this plate of spaghetti and fried apples.
Until than
LOVE....
Sunday, May 13, 2012
THE LUST LIST- Jewelry
A nice pretty diamond necklace. Been wanting to get one of these for awhile and I really dont know why I havent yet. I like love, I like hearts so this is pretty and being two tone makes it versatile enough to wear with anything.
Maybe I'll pick up a piece of jewelry for my birthday. Actually maybe I wont buy myself anything for my birthday. I'll just hang out with the people I love.
No buying jewelry until what?????? Until I get that degree :-D
A girl can lust over diamonds though cant she?
Until than
iNsOmNiA o_O
Im tempted to go downstairs and get some oreos and milk so I can dip em. I love snacking on things late at night.
I used to take Ambien to help me sleep and it helped- I mean it got the job done but it also caused me to black out and not remember anything after I take one.You know that 2% of people that get the crazy side effects of a medication....well Im one of them. If someone called or started texting me right after I took one I wouldnt remember our conversation the next day and I would talk out of the side of my head about off the wall shit that makes no sense. Someone recommended tylenol pm but I dont wanna take pain meds for insomnia. I want to attempt to find a way to just naturally fall asleep. I envy people that can just lay down and like fall asleep moments after their head hits the pillow.
One thing I like about blogging is Im hoping it will help me with my insomnia. It definitely gives me something to do so I dont just lay in bed worrying about shit. Its alot on my mind right at the moment so typing my inner thoughts is a good outlet for me, feels kind of therapeutic
At the moment For one Im worried about my friend, wondering if he's sleeping well. (I hope so)
Im worried about school and passing my dosage calculations class. I want to buy a gun for protection so If someone EVER tries to break into my house I can blow that mf right back out the door. Also I have hiccups that wont go away and thats irritating.
I bet if I pick up that nursing dosage calculations book and start trying to study my problems I BET I would get sleepy than.
Im feeling very random and just all over the place but such is life. I would love a good back scratch right now, they feel like heaven. Its 4:23 now. I ate a whole row of oreos and now Im gonna try to lay down and see if sleep comes.
until than....
LOVE
Saturday, May 12, 2012
THE LUST LIST- Shoes
OK so I thought I had deleted my shoe blog but I checked and it was still in my drafts YAY!!!
There is nothing like a nice sexy pair of shoes. I <3 shoes, specifically pumps and stiletto's and here's my picks for 2012. Same rules apply. They go from bitch please to go ahead treat yourself. Lets start with the bitch pleases.
The Christian Louboutin Stud embellished lace and metallic leather pumps. I mean need I even say anything? Words cant describe the hotness level of this shoe. Studs, lace, red bottoms and a high stiletto heel all in one? They're $1495 and in the bitch please category. I wont be wearing these either until Im a ballin ass RN. But a girl can dream cant she?
Prada Patent Leather Flame Slingback Pumps... Yeah I know it might look a little weird . But I like weird. Im sure the cutouts all over the shoe contrast really well with the skin on your foot and look at that little airplane wing thing on the back! LOL. Yes yes and more yes. I would rock the hell out of this shoe. Its $990 though and in the BP
Dior Gradient Python Peep Toe Platform pumps. Unique, different, and Im sure they look amazing with dark denim. They are also $990. Wont be walking around in these anytime soon. This shoe concludes the bitch please category for this particular blog. Next we move on to the if you deserve it category.
This is the Giuseppe Zanotti Snake Print Metallic Leather Pump. This would be awesome with a fitted pencil skirt or a sexy little black dress. Its $750 and its in the earn it category. When I graduate I can have these simply because I made it and got that degree.
Gucci Noah Animal Print Pony Hair and leather d'orsay pumps. These are $695, in the earn it category. Do I need to say why I like them? I mean its freaking Pony hair and leather for crying out loud. #FANCY
Gucci Charlotte Peep Toe Wedge Pumps. I dont own many flat shoes at all but I would rock these. These are $495 and you can throw these on if you want to be fly but comfortable. Jeans shorts capri's or whatever would be fine to wear these with. These are under $500 but I still feel like they need to be in the earn it category because I dont need to be walking around in Gucci flats til I've walked across that damn college stage to get.... you guessed it. MY DEGREE
its 1:00 am. Im tired. I got more shoes I like but Im done for tonight. The shoes I post tomorrow will be shoes I can afford at the current moment in my life as a little treat.
Im out. Im not proofreading this either.
LOVE
There is nothing like a nice sexy pair of shoes. I <3 shoes, specifically pumps and stiletto's and here's my picks for 2012. Same rules apply. They go from bitch please to go ahead treat yourself. Lets start with the bitch pleases.
The Christian Louboutin Stud embellished lace and metallic leather pumps. I mean need I even say anything? Words cant describe the hotness level of this shoe. Studs, lace, red bottoms and a high stiletto heel all in one? They're $1495 and in the bitch please category. I wont be wearing these either until Im a ballin ass RN. But a girl can dream cant she?
Prada Patent Leather Flame Slingback Pumps... Yeah I know it might look a little weird . But I like weird. Im sure the cutouts all over the shoe contrast really well with the skin on your foot and look at that little airplane wing thing on the back! LOL. Yes yes and more yes. I would rock the hell out of this shoe. Its $990 though and in the BP
category.
*DID YOU EARN IT*
This is the Giuseppe Zanotti Snake Print Metallic Leather Pump. This would be awesome with a fitted pencil skirt or a sexy little black dress. Its $750 and its in the earn it category. When I graduate I can have these simply because I made it and got that degree.
Next up is the Fendi superstar metallic platform pump. Its $635, its an awesome shoe and I love the monogram logo on the heel. I dont care too much for designer shoes that have the logo plastered all over. This is subtle but it still says hey hoe I got on some hot Fendi shoes. This can go with anything and these are also in the earn it category.
Gucci Noah Animal Print Pony Hair and leather d'orsay pumps. These are $695, in the earn it category. Do I need to say why I like them? I mean its freaking Pony hair and leather for crying out loud. #FANCYGucci Charlotte Peep Toe Wedge Pumps. I dont own many flat shoes at all but I would rock these. These are $495 and you can throw these on if you want to be fly but comfortable. Jeans shorts capri's or whatever would be fine to wear these with. These are under $500 but I still feel like they need to be in the earn it category because I dont need to be walking around in Gucci flats til I've walked across that damn college stage to get.... you guessed it. MY DEGREE
its 1:00 am. Im tired. I got more shoes I like but Im done for tonight. The shoes I post tomorrow will be shoes I can afford at the current moment in my life as a little treat.
Im out. Im not proofreading this either.
LOVE
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